Lost Treasure Revived!!

"Happy Birth Day" Everyone shouted as soon I entered in the lobby. I really got scared as I wasn't really expecting this. Real Happiness I felt that day after such a long time. Tough I was in bad mood, I could not recollect why I was feeling bad before. Their gesture made me feel special. 


Suddenly I felt a warm hand on my back. I turned around and froze. Oh!! So Surprise wasn't over. Someone whom I haven't seen in like ages were in front of me with their those special smiles on faces which always helped me in tough times. 


My reason of smiles and my support in all times were there, immediate next to me. I was still froze, not knowing what to say I broke into tears. 


"Stop Crying you fool, You don't have enough energy. You have turned old now." and we all laughed out loud. Jai always had his humour.  Tough I could not hold all of them in my arms, I hugged them. I felt cared and loved.


They travelled so far just to make it for me. I really felt all alone all these years. 


"God!! I love you, Guys!! I missed you all so much. I hope it isn't a dream." I whispered and there it was. Again, my eyes seemed like waterfall again. 


"Ok. We all know how much you can cry so don't prove. and Sweetheart, we are starving so I hope you treating us unlike college." and we laughed again. 


I missed them. I missed those moments. I missed those mischiefs. I missed every moment of my life. How many times I craved to relive them. How many times I prayed to god to give me one more chance last time. 


But today I was happy, really happy!!!


I looked at the window and saw my husband smiling at me. He looked happy, more than me.


He moved towards me and clutched my hand into his "I was really longing to see you happy like this since ages. I thought you lost your smile only being busy in us. I am really sorry that even I also forgot that You also have a life without us too".


I looked at my love and hugged. "I love you" he whispered and I felt complete.


"I love you too, after all you have given me all memories to treasure my whole life" I thought.

May be this is something Good relationships are like, To be able to express what comes into your head, and know it will be understood as you meant it. To be more yourself bcz all of U is able to love in a way the other responds to..

From 3WW:-

From Three words Wednesday http://www.threewordwednesday.com/

     

Living That Scare!!!

"Mommy!!!" I shouted my throat out till the time my Mom reached my room. Its not that I live in some 4 floor big house but still it took her whole five minutes to travel in our 3 BHK flat.. 


"What the hell on the earth is wrong with you that made to shout like this at past 3 midnight?? What is the matter?" She was really annoyed as I disturbed her deep nap. I couldn't believe my Dad was still snoring like nothing happened. 


I really felt very bad for her. She must be very tired after all household chores she has been doing all day. But I couldn't help as I got really scared.


"I felt it. I felt it so close. I felt like it was on me. Walking or I don't know what. But its was there." My voice was trembling when I said.


"What are you talking about beta?? Who??" She asked while scanning my room, each corner. She was really confused what I was talking about.


Me, poor thing. No one can understand what I was going through.


"That thing, that thing mom which I was telling you all in the morning". I uttered. 


"Nothing Beta, you better go to sleep. Its nothing. See, there is absolutely nothing". She said and left the room.


I sat on my bed looking all around. Where it must be? How come no one can see it but me. I felt like crying. I was tortured like never before now.


It left all its signs everywhere like my book shelf, my cupboard, my study, almost everywhere. I saw it. I felt it all around. I feel it's the existence near me then why no one else does.




This wasn't the first time. I was feeling it from last so many days. I saw it. I lived it. It goes all over me nights leaving me in a fear I live whole night. I feel a fear when I switch my light off while going to bed in night. I get scared while opening my drawer for taking my things out. I had already emptied my cupboard from the fear that what if someday I open it and that comes straight on me and kept all my clothes in my Huge Suitcase which I had back in Hostel.  I couldn't help it.


One day I came back home after having such a long day at work to see my whole room like a mess. Actually My Mom spied about "What-that-thing-would-be-which-scares-me..". I needed a bed but ended up on sofa.


This was it. I thought of getting rid of it anyhow. I need to be brave enough to live this scare now. I need to live freely.


And end of it was really amazing. I was going through the e-TOI while having a coffee and there it was looking into my eyes. I saw it again but couldn't hold my gaze for longer. 


I dint shout but whispered.


"Mom, come here fast".. I really felt relieved when She really heard me. 


She came and froze on the door itself. She also saw it. She looked at me and then the curtain.


There that was, swinging on the curtain. Free from all world thinking that it is really safe there.


 A big fat Rat. We found it finally then getting rid wasn't really hard.   

Changes Unexpected!!

He shouted abruptly “No, not anymore, I am really much done. I can’t handle your drama now. I am tired of giving explanations to you over and over. Something is stuck in your mind so you can’t think anything else now.”


And he kept saying but I hang up and the phone. I could not hear anymore as I broke into tears.


He would not understand. Being a guy he won’t understand how much it hurts. I was amazed as he also knew what he meant for me. Like a Kernel he had become for me lately. My whole life started revolving around him only. He was like essence of my life, much needed and even important than my own existence.


Words hurt more than the acts. Couldn’t he be more decent or polite a bit? How hurt I was, couldn’t he imagine. He shouted on me in front of people who don’t even know me. Where was my fault? Was it loving him a lot or caring for him??


The thing he used to feel even in absence now seem drama to him. My emotions now seem over reaction to him. My concern seem over possessiveness to him. Yes!! I couldn't wield my heart and I can not ever.


I could not understand where the charm we were loosing or where the warmth flied. His whole world used to be between my arms. He used to forget his all work pressure or tension with me.


Where are we moving to?? My sad heart really craved for ease.




From 3WW:-


From Three words Wednesday http://www.threewordwednesday.com/

Hopes and Reality!!

Sometimes things leave you with fragile hopes,
Rampant growing feelings hurt with tear drops,


Each word comes out with a tremble, pain doesn't heal
The world would really move on but a tremor you feel...




From 3WW:-

From Three words Wednesday http://www.threewordwednesday.com/

Mistakes You Live With!!

“Realization on time is always better than suffering the after effects as even small things give immense pain sometimes that even tough you have had a shimmering life, they turn it into dark memories”, she thought and went into flash back..


You never really know when fate has other plans for. You think that things are actually going the way you planned it but they only seem perfect, not actually are.


She wandered in the lanes of past, thought about every possible mistake she had made but couldn’t reach where and what she missed out. She had really supporting parents and very loving siblings. Why did even the thought of leaving home strike in her mind?
Was the reason being away from that true laughter her dreams of being really independent?


After like ages, for the 1st time she picked up her pen and wrote:-


Often I sit by the window idle and just stare the moon,
He promised me, my wishes would come true very soon,
How he never thought of the disappointments I’ll have,
He skipped and I waited for him to keep the words he gave.


First time I craved for the ease while suffering from the pain,
First time I felt the fear from every falling drop of the rain...
First time I could not spread my wings and couldn’t dare to fly,
First time I could not see anyone around on whom I could rely.


This was not it as I had a real long way to walk on ahead of me,
I knew will have to face many obstacles and who doesn’t have any?
I confess I had a strong urge to put everything away and just leave,
Everything seemed so wrong and I longed for something to believe.


And this was it. She broke into tears. She never sounded so depressed ever before.


She closed down everything around and wished while lying on the sofa if everything could be same. Wished to erase the mistakes she had made but obviously she couldn’t. Could you ever??






To be continued…..




From 3WW:-


From Three words Wednesday http://www.threewordwednesday.com/

Moving through the Storm!!

It wasn’t so easy for me to live on that land of lies where once I built the house of my dreams.


I really never thought of being away even for a day from the Person who took my breaths away and gave a meaning to my life, a person, whom I considered my soul mate.


All those talks, chats, drive, dinners, walks, smiles, night outs, dances and I don’t know how many things more seemed meaningless and this news came like an earthquake in my life that destroyed all my hopes. I felt like all my feelings got ridiculed. With no matter on being loved I thought of just being quite and let it all go with the flow of my tears.


Yes, I did. I did cry and tears dint even want to stop. He did something too. He cheated on me or may be he just slipped off his loyalty. But I felt cheated. Who wouldn’t? Everyone would. Am I just overreacting or what I am thinking is true? Could he? Dint the thought of all the years we spent together crept in his mind once? Or he just ignored it for the sake of a night? Was she pretty? Or was she a whore?? Did she make a move or what if he did??


Thoughts made me restless. The more I thought even more I got stuck. I was devastated. Life seemed all blank. But I had to make my mind. I had to put a stop, well, at least somewhere. Felt like someone whispered in my ear, “let it go. Loosen your grip, just let it go”.


This was it. I did it again. I proved myself strong. And I decided to move on. To walk on a new way with no one beside. Just me with my new hopes.


Tough it broke me from inside and moved my world upside down; I absolved him without even making a Hiss after all who wants to get their feelings ridiculed. Not me at the least.


From Three words Wednesday http://www.threewordwednesday.com/

We:- The fairer sex!!!!

We women, the most delicate thing ever created by God. Who has too much of patience but ever more to tolerate. Who always has to bear the burden, always affected by lives of her father, husband and than son. No matter how much pain she is carrying in her big but soft heart she has to keep everyone happy around. No matter how many times she wet her pillow with tears she has to put smiles on everyone's face. No matter how much she is starving, she has to provide food to all.

She only starves of love and care. Her heart craves for affection and loyalty. Who really cares what she goes through everyday keeping her chores in the right motion. She is not supposed to expect the love and care she spreads. She is not bound to think that she will get the same security and stability she puts in every relation. She should never ask why am i supposed to accept everything with joy even if it chops my heart in like thousand pieces. She is not supposed to fight for her own and if she does she is being unfair to womanhood. Till when but!!!! Some one has to speak it out.

Well, okk.. There is no special reason for writing this blog. I just felt like When god has given women the power of move the world forward by carrying a new life in her womb, why is she not given a authority and priority. Everyone knows she is important, why dint she get the feel then. But Why???