Romancing with Life!!

Leaning over the floor, dabbling his hand in the water of the pool and splashing the water over me, he smiled peacefully.


After all the trauma we had been through, after all those things we saw recently, It gave me a really nice feeling as I was always his side when he was going through all those ups and downs.  


Feeling of the warmth of that care and love mixed with small those water drops while looking deep into his eyes, I smiled back slowly without uttering a word, loving the way we were romancing with life.  


May be that is why people say, “In love every act makes impact which seems irritating when u not in love”. 

My life Before You!!

Outer surface isn't always the only base to Judge,

One could never see whole world sitting on the Edge..

I knew you but never imagined myself being a part of You,

Distance faded slowly, came closer and I fell deep for you, ..

A sudden Fear creeps in seeing the approaching nightfall,

I want only you around me always as for me it would be all..

Safe I feel my existence when I see it's attached with yours,

Time seems to fly so fast than ever even tough it is hours..

Looking in past I realize sometimes how life turned upside- down,

You were there by my side, treated me like queen without crown..

Just want to say I'll be there with you, no matter what happens,

With every passing second of time, my love for you only deepens!!!

Let Lives Live!!

It was drizzling out and the air was soothing. She looked out with hope to get some peace. Suddenly she felt wetness on her cheeks, she dint even realize when two tears slowly fell down on them. She wanted to cry her heart out but only crying wasn’t going to help her anyhow this time. She had to make a move, a move of change and with her full effort.

The report was about to come out at anytime. A report which was about to decide future of her and her kid which is still to take breathe in this air for the first time. A report, which is supposed to decide destiny of the unborn kid. She could see it almost, demise of her hopes.

“What you looking at? What is there out? Could not you realize the rain drops are coming in the room? See, the carpet near window is all wet.” He closed the doors of window.

She was so lost to even realize her husband has come in the room.

“Aah, Yeah! Nothing, I was just letting the air come in the room.” She sounded like she just woke up.

“Oh! Okay!! What time the doctor is coming, six or so?” He asked unaware of the battle going inside her heart and brain.

“Yeah”! She replied deadly as soon as he left.

‘Is he the same man whom she married just five years back? Can a person change in only this much of time? Do I even know him? If yes, then why does he seem so strange to me now.” She thought with a lump in her throat.

All his words started coming in her head at once.  The whole conversation of last night started playing like a film in front of her eyes.

“Mom does not want a girl child. It has to be a boy this time, you understand?” He almost shouted on her.  

“What If it’s a girl again like last time?” It was her.

“Than same, we’ll get this thing aborted again” he sounded real rude.

  

“Thing? It’s not a thing. It’s my kid. Be it boy or girl, it’s a part of my existence. How can you say like that?” How cruel can a Father get, she wondered?

“Whatever you say does not really mean anything to anyone. I earn and it’s my house. Now you have to decide what you want. Your husband or this piece of meat?” and he left her in tears.

She did not want this test. She did not want an abortion also of her last baby girl, but she did. She was weak, really weak to protest for this.

But she hoped for good. She wanted it to be a boy this time. She did not want any disputes in family. She looked at the clock. It was almost six in the evening and she heard the door bell. Her heart came in the mouth at once.

“It must be doctor” and she rushed to the door of her room and stood behind it. She dint want anyone to see her or tell her to come there.

She heard whole thing and collapsed there itself.

“Why fate is playing games with me” she dint understand.

“Did you hear what doctor said? We are going to the clinic tomorrow. He’ll arrange everything. It’s again a girl” he sounded cruel.

She dint say anything and closed the door behind him. It was the time. To choose what she thinks is right. She went to bed and cried till she decided what to go with.

She packed her bags and thought of leaving.

To a new life, to take breathe of freedom, to let the baby breathe in the air she wished to. She could see the independence lying ahead with the revival of life.

A Ride Unforgettable!!!

Recently I happened to have a ride on slow Mumbai local train after such a long time. I don’t have to travel much as my work place is hardly 20 minutes ride from my home so cab and the bus are the easiest ways to travel. Yes, the place where I used to work before or I better say where I worked for not more than 3 months was a bit far from my place. But again my directions were different so there was no much of crowd in the trains. Well, being a kid of Indian Navy Personnel we are actually destined to live in one of the most posh and well maintained areas of Mumbai, South Mumbai.

Well, okay!!! That’s not what this post is about. So I happened to have an exam this Saturday and unfortunately the center was in Western Suburbs of Mumbai. For them who don’t know what they are, let me tell you. The most crowded places with people and traffic plus most polluted areas which are situated on the western line of Mumbai are called western suburbs. Even tough it was a very Sunny Saturday afternoon the train became too full to travel.

Well, I got the train from Church gate which happens to be the place from where the trains start, so was all empty. I boarded it with no hassle as I reached there in advance.

The journey was really amazing and the weather became so pleasant so I was actually enjoying the ride as the cold breeze was playing with my hairs my face with its soothing touch. That time I never knew that this journey which am enjoying so much right now is going to leave a remembrance on my mind for whole life.

Okay!! So what happened was after like 3-4 stations we crossed the train became so crowded tough it was only ladies compartment!! I thought of standing of the gate as it was really suffocating inside. Suddenly I heard a sound which was really loud. I really thought that someone might want to shuffle their places so they are arguing upon that. I turned around to see what’s going on and I saw two ladies shouting at each other on top of their voices.      

1^st lady “what the hell on earth you think you are? How dared you to push me, bitch. What if I would have fallen?”

I literally stared at her face. She was sitting on a seat comfortably. I looked around at the people standing and of course they must be getting more pushes from around but still quite.

“Even tough she would have fallen, where would she fall? Not off the train for sure.” I wondered.

2^nd lady “what do you expect me to do in this so much crowded train? If you don’t want to be pushed, why don’t you come by your own vehicle, bloody whore?”

1^st lady “yes, why you would not know? You some pander or what?”

This was it and the conversation started in their local languages which end up with them pulling each other’s hair like anything and shouting without caring about people around.

I really could not understand what they were talking but first time in my life I saw this kind of face of people who call themselves urban.

“Why are we becoming so impatient and intolerant?” I thought and got no answer. 

Lost in You!!!

I wondered, what I did so God gave you to me,

I am blessed, no one can replace you, be it any!!

I am really happy, even more I am delighted.

It’s always only you, with whom my life lighted!!

You are my real charm and the sun shine,

Just keep your hands clutched into mine!!

Be yourself always, you don’t have to pretend,

I am with you every turn or be it every end!!

It seems like time has just passed in an instant,

I was really alone before and life was all vacant!!

It feels complete now, I have no desires,

I have everything for what one only aspires!!

From 3WW:-

From Three words Wednesday http://www.threewordwednesday.com/

Lost Treasure Revived!!

"Happy Birth Day" Everyone shouted as soon I entered in the lobby. I really got scared as I wasn't really expecting this. Real Happiness I felt that day after such a long time. Tough I was in bad mood, I could not recollect why I was feeling bad before. Their gesture made me feel special. 


Suddenly I felt a warm hand on my back. I turned around and froze. Oh!! So Surprise wasn't over. Someone whom I haven't seen in like ages were in front of me with their those special smiles on faces which always helped me in tough times. 


My reason of smiles and my support in all times were there, immediate next to me. I was still froze, not knowing what to say I broke into tears. 


"Stop Crying you fool, You don't have enough energy. You have turned old now." and we all laughed out loud. Jai always had his humour.  Tough I could not hold all of them in my arms, I hugged them. I felt cared and loved.


They travelled so far just to make it for me. I really felt all alone all these years. 


"God!! I love you, Guys!! I missed you all so much. I hope it isn't a dream." I whispered and there it was. Again, my eyes seemed like waterfall again. 


"Ok. We all know how much you can cry so don't prove. and Sweetheart, we are starving so I hope you treating us unlike college." and we laughed again. 


I missed them. I missed those moments. I missed those mischiefs. I missed every moment of my life. How many times I craved to relive them. How many times I prayed to god to give me one more chance last time. 


But today I was happy, really happy!!!


I looked at the window and saw my husband smiling at me. He looked happy, more than me.


He moved towards me and clutched my hand into his "I was really longing to see you happy like this since ages. I thought you lost your smile only being busy in us. I am really sorry that even I also forgot that You also have a life without us too".


I looked at my love and hugged. "I love you" he whispered and I felt complete.


"I love you too, after all you have given me all memories to treasure my whole life" I thought.

May be this is something Good relationships are like, To be able to express what comes into your head, and know it will be understood as you meant it. To be more yourself bcz all of U is able to love in a way the other responds to..

From 3WW:-

From Three words Wednesday http://www.threewordwednesday.com/

     

Living That Scare!!!

"Mommy!!!" I shouted my throat out till the time my Mom reached my room. Its not that I live in some 4 floor big house but still it took her whole five minutes to travel in our 3 BHK flat.. 


"What the hell on the earth is wrong with you that made to shout like this at past 3 midnight?? What is the matter?" She was really annoyed as I disturbed her deep nap. I couldn't believe my Dad was still snoring like nothing happened. 


I really felt very bad for her. She must be very tired after all household chores she has been doing all day. But I couldn't help as I got really scared.


"I felt it. I felt it so close. I felt like it was on me. Walking or I don't know what. But its was there." My voice was trembling when I said.


"What are you talking about beta?? Who??" She asked while scanning my room, each corner. She was really confused what I was talking about.


Me, poor thing. No one can understand what I was going through.


"That thing, that thing mom which I was telling you all in the morning". I uttered. 


"Nothing Beta, you better go to sleep. Its nothing. See, there is absolutely nothing". She said and left the room.


I sat on my bed looking all around. Where it must be? How come no one can see it but me. I felt like crying. I was tortured like never before now.


It left all its signs everywhere like my book shelf, my cupboard, my study, almost everywhere. I saw it. I felt it all around. I feel it's the existence near me then why no one else does.




This wasn't the first time. I was feeling it from last so many days. I saw it. I lived it. It goes all over me nights leaving me in a fear I live whole night. I feel a fear when I switch my light off while going to bed in night. I get scared while opening my drawer for taking my things out. I had already emptied my cupboard from the fear that what if someday I open it and that comes straight on me and kept all my clothes in my Huge Suitcase which I had back in Hostel.  I couldn't help it.


One day I came back home after having such a long day at work to see my whole room like a mess. Actually My Mom spied about "What-that-thing-would-be-which-scares-me..". I needed a bed but ended up on sofa.


This was it. I thought of getting rid of it anyhow. I need to be brave enough to live this scare now. I need to live freely.


And end of it was really amazing. I was going through the e-TOI while having a coffee and there it was looking into my eyes. I saw it again but couldn't hold my gaze for longer. 


I dint shout but whispered.


"Mom, come here fast".. I really felt relieved when She really heard me. 


She came and froze on the door itself. She also saw it. She looked at me and then the curtain.


There that was, swinging on the curtain. Free from all world thinking that it is really safe there.


 A big fat Rat. We found it finally then getting rid wasn't really hard.