That Divine Beauty..!

Beauty lies underneath the human skin, in the heart and soul then no matter if someone has wrinkly skin, dark complexion or even ugly face. This is something which gives you immense pleasure when you even think about it. Being a part of something like this is truly divine in itself. 

Whenever I think of true beauty, humanity and living for it an incident creeps in my mind. A very old incident which really made me think deeply about our life and the motive of living.

Few years back when I was young and around 15-16 year old. When I hardly had any clue about what life really is; was selected for a Desert trekking Camp held at Bikaner, Rajasthan, India. I was the youngest participant so was being cared by everyone. In desert where greenery was hardly seen and water wasn't at all available, I was nearly dying with thrust. I had already walked 2-3 Km surviving on few drops every now and then. We all were running out of water and the next stoppage was only after 5 more Km. I felt the world going dark under the burning and smoking heat in that month of May. 


No sign of any human being too. Just when I thought I would now collapse we heard a sound of Camel coming from somewhere nearby. A ray of hope crept in. We rushed towards that to find a small hut with grass made up and man standing next to his camel there. I felt breathe of relief going down my spine. It was a Pyau (A place where water is kept in pots for the travelers).

I was so happy that I almost ran towards it. There was this old very dark lady with wrinkled hands and face or everywhere. She had large white spots on her body. I didn’t really find it hygienic. As my face expresses a lot about what I think, Pankaj (An elder guy in his early 20's who took care of me during whole trip) pulled me back towards him.

"Stop making faces. it doesn't look good. Drink water". He whispered.

"Yeah, but she is so ugly. What if her hands are not washed? What if there would be germs in water? What if I fall sick? No, I won't have water from here." But I had no option. Looking at her hands, her cloths, her face I had water. I was about to cry with frustration.

I think that woman sensed the fear in my eyes. Smiling she called me with a gentle voice and said something which I don't remember exactly word by word but the meaning was "If you living for yourself, it’s not bad but if you living only for yourself then your life is not even worth living. You might be scared of doing something you don't know about but if you scared of doing something which you know is good for you, which is foolishness."

That time I thought those things was irrelevant but after hearing about her story from that camel rider I just knew what she was talking about.

Her husband was died in a war when she was just 27. At that delicate age her in-laws threw her out of house calling her a curse on family and thought her disease was a proof of that. They told her to leave and never show her ugly face. 


She had nowhere to go. She roamed everywhere and then finally opened this place for water from the money government gave her and was living there since then. She was bit literate so she started teaching small girls and their parents gave her food for that. 

It’s been 50 years and things have been same since then. People came and tried to give her money but she always refused. There were funds for that place to renovate and she used them for the same. A true example of living for the land who gave you birth. No desires, conditions and expectations, just a Nobel cause. So visible but still living in the Fog..!

Though there were plenty of gossips about her but still the goddess went on living for a cause to make that difference..!! To spread something which she never got; Love..!

She was beautiful, truly blessed with beauty. Divine Beauty...!!!

Things what create history..!!

"She is so graceful, so pretty. Isn't she?" Eli whispered in my ear slowly.

"Yeah man; she is just wonderful". I really envied her. 

In the long white gown she was really looking like a goddess. There was only a thin gap between them two. What a feeling it must be. Happiness and jitters; all mixed. The fear of the big responsibilities and the smile of being with someone she always had loved.

What a great show at a great place with greatest people of the world.

Though there were some streaming problems but still YouTube had done a great job for the broadcasting of Royal Wedding and that too watching it in the official hours, it really felt like we were having a leisure time witnessing the great wedding of the century which is going to create a history.

Times when Unfair..!!

"What???" I looked at him surprisingly and yeah, obviously after that fight of last night it was such a surprise to see him standing next to my bed early morning. He almost scared me.

"I made you breakfast and tea. Wake up or you will be late for work" he said.

If it would have been like a normal day I would have overwhelmed with joy but those words of last night were still fresh in my head.

I looked at the clock, turned my head towards wall and again went to sleep "No work today, I am taking a break, will go out somewhere with friends".

I could feel him standing next to me still waiting for me to wake up but as I said it wasn't another day. All his lies and the act of disloyalties stood up against him and stopped me from melting once again. I felt like kneading my head. It was already paining badly because of the tears outflow whole night.

"Okay, and yeah, I have cleansed the kitchen too so you take care" and he left for work.

How much effort a sorry would cause him. and even if he says sorry would I be able to be the same ever again.

Was it my fault that I made my world go around nothing but only him? Did I expected more than I deserved by any chance? 

                Not I guess. Instead of breakfast a break was much needed I suppose.

A new Story!!

I stopped and looked back at him,

That glow of my face had become dim,

He waved his hand at me with a smile,

We'll be walking away now every mile,

That love and care suddenly seemed to fade,

We never knew life even has this dark shade,

The pain may was identical or may not be,

Feeling was different as it wasn't any spree;

I felt an ache in head as things came like volley,

Dual state of mind but pretends to take it easily;

It was the time that we bid each other good bye,

We knew it wont be easy but we had to try,

I walked off thinking about that each day of glory,

then thought but this is the beginning of a new story!!

If could put a STOP!!!

Everything seemed so uneasy just in a blink. They were friends and they still are; but she never expected this to happen between them or may be there was something she sensed already but could never believe it as she never wanted it to happen. Sharing those warm talk or thoughts on few occasions initially would lead them till here, she didn’t imagine ever.

What is going on? What is it she has a feeling of but doesn’t really know? Heights on confusions it was. He was a decent person; a really nice friend and kind heart human who gives respect to everyone but still this wasn’t something she could carry comfortably.

She thought of few things, few past days and few talks but still it wasn’t really enough to decide something delicate like that.

She had just one option finally “going with the flow and let everything happen the way it’s supposed to.”

Taking a deep breathe she smiled looking out of window. Life isn’t always the way you plan it. It can be even beautiful than that sometimes.

Somethings Sometimes!!

Cheerful faces and handful of happiness,

Even calling that bliss would be less;

A small life was lying there quite in my arms; it is my only life I felt that time. I looked at my husband; saw him standing there near the door with wet eyes. What a feeling. A life came on earth through me.

I looked at my dad, saw him smiling with tears. I smiled at him and he whispered “now you would realize that I wasn’t abrasive, it was my concern for this small piece of life which to die for.”

My husband approached and bounded us both in his strong arms; “I thought I almost lost you today. How could I bear such a huge loss? Thanks god for everything” and I felt drenched with emotions and tears.

I felt so happy that my operation made my atheist husband believe in God.

A small life brought ever shining smiles and charms to our lives.

Horror from Past!!!

It was conniption. They really made her aghast. She stood there blank, looked at the empty street and rushed towards home. It was all janky from every corner. They ruined everything. 


She closed the door behind and broke into tears. What they want from me, why are doing this to me? I never did anything bad to them as I don’t even know them. Who are they and why are they following me?  So many thoughts kept creeping in her horrified mind.  Is it something related to my past, did they find me, do they know who am I? 


Oh Lord, please save me. How long the ghosts of my past will scare me? She crashed on bed and scooch over to get the remote. A bit of music might help her to relax her senses a bit.