Hopes and Reality!!

Sometimes things leave you with fragile hopes,
Rampant growing feelings hurt with tear drops,


Each word comes out with a tremble, pain doesn't heal
The world would really move on but a tremor you feel...




From 3WW:-

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Mistakes You Live With!!

“Realization on time is always better than suffering the after effects as even small things give immense pain sometimes that even tough you have had a shimmering life, they turn it into dark memories”, she thought and went into flash back..


You never really know when fate has other plans for. You think that things are actually going the way you planned it but they only seem perfect, not actually are.


She wandered in the lanes of past, thought about every possible mistake she had made but couldn’t reach where and what she missed out. She had really supporting parents and very loving siblings. Why did even the thought of leaving home strike in her mind?
Was the reason being away from that true laughter her dreams of being really independent?


After like ages, for the 1st time she picked up her pen and wrote:-


Often I sit by the window idle and just stare the moon,
He promised me, my wishes would come true very soon,
How he never thought of the disappointments I’ll have,
He skipped and I waited for him to keep the words he gave.


First time I craved for the ease while suffering from the pain,
First time I felt the fear from every falling drop of the rain...
First time I could not spread my wings and couldn’t dare to fly,
First time I could not see anyone around on whom I could rely.


This was not it as I had a real long way to walk on ahead of me,
I knew will have to face many obstacles and who doesn’t have any?
I confess I had a strong urge to put everything away and just leave,
Everything seemed so wrong and I longed for something to believe.


And this was it. She broke into tears. She never sounded so depressed ever before.


She closed down everything around and wished while lying on the sofa if everything could be same. Wished to erase the mistakes she had made but obviously she couldn’t. Could you ever??






To be continued…..




From 3WW:-


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Moving through the Storm!!

It wasn’t so easy for me to live on that land of lies where once I built the house of my dreams.


I really never thought of being away even for a day from the Person who took my breaths away and gave a meaning to my life, a person, whom I considered my soul mate.


All those talks, chats, drive, dinners, walks, smiles, night outs, dances and I don’t know how many things more seemed meaningless and this news came like an earthquake in my life that destroyed all my hopes. I felt like all my feelings got ridiculed. With no matter on being loved I thought of just being quite and let it all go with the flow of my tears.


Yes, I did. I did cry and tears dint even want to stop. He did something too. He cheated on me or may be he just slipped off his loyalty. But I felt cheated. Who wouldn’t? Everyone would. Am I just overreacting or what I am thinking is true? Could he? Dint the thought of all the years we spent together crept in his mind once? Or he just ignored it for the sake of a night? Was she pretty? Or was she a whore?? Did she make a move or what if he did??


Thoughts made me restless. The more I thought even more I got stuck. I was devastated. Life seemed all blank. But I had to make my mind. I had to put a stop, well, at least somewhere. Felt like someone whispered in my ear, “let it go. Loosen your grip, just let it go”.


This was it. I did it again. I proved myself strong. And I decided to move on. To walk on a new way with no one beside. Just me with my new hopes.


Tough it broke me from inside and moved my world upside down; I absolved him without even making a Hiss after all who wants to get their feelings ridiculed. Not me at the least.


From Three words Wednesday http://www.threewordwednesday.com/

We:- The fairer sex!!!!

We women, the most delicate thing ever created by God. Who has too much of patience but ever more to tolerate. Who always has to bear the burden, always affected by lives of her father, husband and than son. No matter how much pain she is carrying in her big but soft heart she has to keep everyone happy around. No matter how many times she wet her pillow with tears she has to put smiles on everyone's face. No matter how much she is starving, she has to provide food to all.

She only starves of love and care. Her heart craves for affection and loyalty. Who really cares what she goes through everyday keeping her chores in the right motion. She is not supposed to expect the love and care she spreads. She is not bound to think that she will get the same security and stability she puts in every relation. She should never ask why am i supposed to accept everything with joy even if it chops my heart in like thousand pieces. She is not supposed to fight for her own and if she does she is being unfair to womanhood. Till when but!!!! Some one has to speak it out.

Well, okk.. There is no special reason for writing this blog. I just felt like When god has given women the power of move the world forward by carrying a new life in her womb, why is she not given a authority and priority. Everyone knows she is important, why dint she get the feel then. But Why???

I was!!

It was an ordinary day just like every other day of her life. She got up in the morning, after all the routine left for office, again slept in the cab and after whole day of struggling with mails and release orders finally came home back in no hurry. Yeah, in no hurry.

I never felt her so idle and unstable. It seemed like something was badly disturbing her in somewhere deep down which she is not even able to take out. Like every day there was neither that bounce in her walk when she left for home or the warmth in voice the way we felt when she used to talk. I never felt her presence so quite and calm. I could not recognize her at all as she was not the same what she used to be. There wasn’t that friendly smile because of what she had so many friends and for what they used to love her.

Things seemed to be changed since she left from here because a girl who never stopped talking and laughing for no reason now hardly talks and smiles to people. Even tough if she tries she feels why to fake, as it wasn’t hard to smile for her ever. A girl who never cared for future and whatever is happening around, is now more concerned about how others will feel, no matter how much it hurts her. Getting hurt was never even known to her. Pain was a thing of some other universe to her. Everyone was just same for her; every body has the same importance. No priorities or anything. Her life was like another fairy tale and yeah, they do exist.

A girl who never expected much from life as she always got everything even before she thought of it. She had no problems at her own; even she knew how to turn teary eyes into smiley cheeks. A girl who never even gave mind a sec to think twice before doing or saying something, now keep talking in her mind but tongue doesn’t seem to support the brain.


God, I missed her. I missed the way things used to be.

I closed my eyes and tears rolled down on my cheeks, as I could not look at the mirror anymore.

The distance

Keep the pace steady and slow if you want to concur,
It’s not very hard to figure out how distances occur,
Relations cannot remain the same as they used to,
It can be hard to just cope up and know that how to.

Whole time passes too fast and even the life goes on,
Sometime even if you want to but can’t just stay on,
May be everything is still the same or may it not be,
It is or looks way different so it’s very hard to agree.

Memories of moments spent together keep creeping in,
The person I used to know does no more look like him,
Never thought those fantasies I had will turn out fake,
Never imagined life would be hard and even harder to take.

Those smiles we shared and how tears used to be wiped,
Those small silly but teary fights were never this hyped,
See, how could things change suddenly in just one instant?
Did you even ever think of being so away or this distant?

Take a break from all the busy tiring chores for a while,
Learn to live holding my hands and wear always smile,
Our relation is not made for just remembering old times,
We are meant to be together and write love filled rhymes.

A sticker's move

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Sailing through the storm of lies,
We never know where the faith flies,
All would left are few void memories,
U may look calm but the heart cries.

Every dream we saw seems broken,
The flowers of smiles even seem rotten,
We wish we could just slowly escape,
Just in a wave fully blossomed love dries..

It feels as we are losing the grip,
Everything can’t just get fit in scrip,
Need to open up hidden own angelic wings,
For her own identity, even a ant strives..

Everything start to look false and fake,
You neither can let it go nor able to take,
Hard to breath even harder to stretch a smile,
True, real life is far more away than amities..

Why don't all around the heart just put a wall.
Love gives only pain then why we have to fall,
We can’t just feel that things are all the same,
Wish it was live so happiness itself could amplify.

It feels like just to be in the lanes of past,
At least good memories you have, who ever last,
Wish just could turn back my life as it was before,
Don't even feel like living when even soul dies..